Touch

From the moment we come out of the womb touch becomes an important part of our lives. Whether we are touched or not has an essential impact on our development. Attachment theory delves into this. How securely attached are we? 

Touch. 

Fingers caressing a baby’s face. A baby’s head. Ever so softly.  

Hug consoling the seven year old child who comes home crying from a bad day at school. 

Hand of a father cupping his little girl’s face as she looks up into his eyes and he tells her she’s beautiful and how much he loves her.  

Touch.  

You inserting yourself into me after several “no’s” and several “stop please’s.” In and out. Each time producing more numbness. Loss of sensitivity to...touch.  

Touch.  

Becomes less important now. Doesn’t matter who touches me now. Numb. I am numb to any kind of touch. My own touch. The touch of others. Numb. His touch. Then his. His touch. Then his. All the same. Numb.  

Touch.  

Then His touch came and changed everything. You touched deeper than anyone else. Your touch revived me. Made me feel again. Pain. Pain of what I had been numb to for years. But pain so necessary to feel. Needed in order to heal. Your touch brought healing to me.  

Touch.  

Touch is beautiful again. Even though reminders of pain come, it’s okay. It reminds me I can feel again. 

Mami’s kiss on my forehead. Papi’s pat on my head. Brother’s high five. Sister’s “forced hug.” Nephew’s embrace. Girlfriend’s tight hugs. Boyfriend’s caress. 

Touch.

Touch is beautiful again.  

Touch me. Let me touch you.  

Touch.